miércoles, 31 de diciembre de 2014

[Two subjects]

As usual my darlings, it´s been forever.
A pleasure to see the ghosts of my blog (No, is not sarcasm, and yes I´m smiling)
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I don´t think I´ve done this before, but I actually got subjects I want to talk/write about, and I have no idea of how it will go, so my darlings, here goes nothing.

Doing things and fear.

This is probably not the correct tittle, the thing is that one can only talk about things that they´ve seen, lived, or heard of (the last one is not very accurate, but it counts as an opinion), what has happened, is that I am learning to say no without regrets, it sounds silly, but it is hard for some people (like me), not because I always say yes, don´t misunderstand me, but because I always thought I was been mean or that I could have been helpfull (certain situations don´t apply).

So, lately I´ve been caught in some conversations, where I say no and the reply back I get is "why? are you afraid of something?" and I get this dislocated expression, because to me, it makes no effing sense at all what the answer was, I mean, I don´t need to be afraid of anything to say no to something that I DON´T want to do, I mean, it´s simple, right? If you ask me to have a drink alcohol, and I DON´T like drinking, I will obviously say no, if you´re asking me to be in a relationship with you but I feel nothing at all, I will more than obviously say NO, if you dare me to do something beyond stupid and I don´t want to do it, I will OBVIOUSLY say NO, I think is more than obvious, and I don´t think I need to be afraid of anything to say no, so ladies and gents, saying no is also healthy and will probably avoid you to be stuck in situations you´ll later on regret.
I also support living, trying new things, saying yes and so on, but you don´t always have to say yes.
Done here!

Teenagers nowadays.

I went to a concert around a week ago or two, and in the bus I was at, I was surrounded by teenagers, I must say I am not talking in general terms, not all teenagers are annoying pieces of shit that don´t know how to behave (and yes I kinda blame some of the parents in part for that), apparently their idea of behaviour was "the noisier, more annoying, clown-like, douchebag, pretend to be the best thing ever, loud, attentionwhore, dickhead I act, the better person and more loved I am", and guess who and which rest of the bus disliked them a lot and wanted the trip to be over? yes, that´s right, everybody in the bus except for them.

So please, keep in mind that manners will never be out of fashion, they are a must to live in society, even though I do admit they are a lot of ...people, who are older and act even worst than them, so raise your little ones alright, and even as teenagers, you actually can scold them for acting in douchebag ways.

Behaving and having manners won´t make you stop been yourself, it will more likely make living socially nicer.

And to all of you little ones, children, teenagers, ladies and gentleman who use manners and behave, congratulations! you are a really rare population, sadly is not a common thing, but keep up the awesomeness in you, I´m sure people around you are proud, and if they´re not, I can assure you I am, even not knowing you c:

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And that is all for today, not long but, it´s there, I think you get the idea, well, I haven´t slept in all night and it´s 6:20am, I´m off.

Oh and Happy new year everyone!
Best of wishes!

domingo, 3 de agosto de 2014

03/08/2014

Ha pasado mucho tiempo, ¿Verdad?
Lo sé.
Te advierto que tengo las emociones a flor de piel, y honestamente no pienso disculparme por sonar tonta o quizás sintiendo demasiado. Estoy feliz, aunque siento que se me cae el mundo encima.
La boda de ella, lío con los padres, poca paga en el trabajo, imposibilidades de independizarme, sentirme y estar fuera de sitio, estar atrapada al antojo de terceros, injusticias y aún peor, ser la vergüenza y una molestia según tus padres...Pero, también está el mundo y..estas tú, tú que has sido uno de mis motivos favoritos por los cuales sonreír, no tengo idea de que pretendes, igual te irás, pero mientras estás aquí, no puedo, ni quiero evitar sonreír. 

Y el mundo, que puedo decir del mundo, está lleno de de-todo, hijos de puta, gente desgraciada, miserable, infeliz, así como también gente maravillosa, llena de vida y quienes quieren ayudar, no herirte, ni hundirte. Dios bendiga a esas personas.

Estoy más que feliz de haber conocido a algunas de esas personas que lo valen todo y siempre aparece esa persona random que te sorprende con lo que menos te imaginas, y no puedes evitar sonreír y dar gracias a todo el universo por esa pequeña conspiración que significa el mundo para ti.
A todos ustedes, seres increíbles, mil gracias.
De verdad creo que no estaría aquí de no ser por ustedes, directa o indirectamente.
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Now playing: Arcade Fire - We´re all leaving.

And this is my therapy, for some reason I´ve been looking constantly for things to make me sad; a thought, a song, a movie, a subject..anything to make me cry, it took me a while to realize that, it´s been me, it´s the way my mind looks for an exit of acumulated stuff, acumulated feelings, and it was working and it stopped, and I can´t seem to cry, I need to get some stuff off of my chest, but I can´t find the way, not yet atleas.

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Life is always full of changes
People keep evolving, nobody ever remains the same
And this moment of my life, is awell a time of change.